Tuesday, September 27, 2016

Dear friends

Dear friends,

Until further notice, I'm taking a break from blogging. I don't have anything to give right now ... not humor ... not support ... nothing ... not even to myself. I want to ask all of you to stick with us, but I know how this works. I know if I don't visit other pages, no one will visit ours. I know that if I don't put us out there, we will quickly be forgotten. I just don't have the heart or the wherewithal to maintain this blog right now. I tried so hard to keep with it - fighting hard - not wanting to let the sadness and unbearable pain win - but I don't have any fight left right now. I'm sorry to those of you who have supported us and never wavered - it hurts me even more to feel like I've let you down. I feel stupid for letting a boy hurt me this badly and break me so completely. I don't give my heart lightly, but when I do, I give it my all. I'm sorry my decisions in my personal life affected the work that I love so much so severely as to make that work impossible.  I just need a break. I need to take some time and figure out if I have anything worth giving this community anymore. And really, if I have anything worth giving anyone. For those of you who might worry, I'm not questioning my life. I'll survive and re-make myself as I have billions of times before with each abandonment and each hurt. In fact, this blog and the strong relationship I have with Bear Cat are the products of all those survivals and re-makings. Thank you to all of you for your support, kind words, advice, and love. It's meant the world to me and, even as a blogger, I can't find the words to express how much. Thank you.

Katherine
aka "Momma Kat"

ps - Last week, I committed to co-hosting a blog hop two Saturdays a month. To be fair to the other co-hosts and my commitment, I will participate as promised - so I guess I'm not TOTALLY on a break :)

My beautiful boy who's never let me down ... never wavered in his love for me ... and has saved me every single day of the past ten years. I'm in good paws :)




31 comments:

  1. Everyone needs a break sometimes to focus on offline things. The important thing is that you take care of yourself and know that there's plenty of love out here in the blogosphere when you are ready to return. We are sending you lots of purrs and hugs and counting on Bear to deliver them both to you.

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  2. Sorry you feel dat way awnty Katherine, and we're sorry da man boy hurt you so much. Mommy says she's here fur ya' ifin ya' want or need to talk, yell. cry or whatever. She's a purretty good listener ifin we don't say so ourselves. And of course Bear will have your back so no worries there. We know you have purrlenty to contribute ya' just need to get dat boy right outta your head. You're purrobably to young to know where dat sayin' came from, but dat's okay, ya' get da point. We's sendin' big hugs and lots of purrayers.

    Luv ya'

    Dezi and Raena and mommy A

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    1. Head & Shoulders commercial? I'm older than most people think (hint, close to 40). Thank your mommy. You all have been amazing friends and I might just take her up on that offer.

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    2. Well, ya' age good. Mommy says those are called good genes. Cuz we had ya' figgered fur somewhere in your 20's. Fur sure young enuff to be mopmmy's kid and maybe even a grandkid. Altho' she didn't have any of those. She found kitties and never looked back. :) And as fur takin' mommy up on her offer, feel furee. We don't say things we don't mean. Mommy says one of da good things 'bout not havin' peeps who luv ya' and stuff is dat you can always tell da truth. MOL Anyways, give her a call ifin ya' want. And big hugs fur a good nights sleep. Estra snuggles fur Bear.

      Luv ya'

      Dezi and Raena

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  3. we certainly understand about taking a break at times....no worries. take care of yourself and know that no other person should determine your self worth

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  4. Take time for you and take good care of yourself. We send you tons of purrs. Purrs

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  5. So sorry to hear this, Mamma Kat, but we hope you can work it out without to much pain and don't forget, we are always open to hear about you and your Bear Cat. Here's an Extra Soft Pawkiss to comfort you :) <3

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  6. (disclaimer : I am 70.) In 30 years you will be amazed at the tears you wasted ! I say this not judgmentally but to let you know you can survive, as lots of us have (I've dealt with clinical depression as well). Take care of yourself & keep hugging that Bear Cat ! We will be rooting for you and here when you come back !

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  7. I will miss you and Bear. I look forward to your posts every day , but I certainly understand why you would need a break. I will welcome you back with open arms and I am sure everyone else will too. XO

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    1. Thank you. I'm glad we bring joy to someone's day. Bear's still obsessed with his crocheted chicken leg. That thing goes missing and we've got PROBLEMS! :)

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  8. Momma Kat, you know we are here for you if you need us. Just say the word. Take good care of Momma Kat, Bear!

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  9. Please take all the time you need. And know that we're here for you! Hugs to Momma Kat and Bear Cat!

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  10. we are praying for strength for you to get through this difficult time. I don't mean this cold, but guys aren't worth it!! When I was young my heart was broken nearly on a daily basis and I would lay frozen on the couch for days.........it was NEVER, EVER worth it!!!! (((hugs)))) just remember you are special and have a lot that you bring to this world. Take the time that you need, we will all be here when you return. xoxoxo catchatwithcarenandcody

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    1. Thank you. Outside of my ex-husband, this is only the second time I've been this attached. This isn't normal for me and, in that, is kind of scary. Yeah. Boys probably aren't worth it. :) Thank you for being our friend - it means so much.

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  11. We understand completely, and we are so sorry your heart is hurting so much. Please know that we care for you, and that we will be here when you and Bear Cat return. For now, take good care of you, and be kind to yourself. You are special, and you are worth it! Big hugs.

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  12. Saw your post on FB. So sorry you are having a hard time right now. I've had men messing me around too and I know how hard it hurts, especially as you give your all. Take all the time you off you need to heal. And you will heal, believe me. Just believe in yourself and remember how much Bear loves you. I'm sure Bear will take care of you and remember we are all here if you need us.

    Love, hugs and purrs xx
    Athena and Marie

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    1. Thank you. I know you're right. I appreciate your friendship more than I can express. Thank you.

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  13. Katherine, Linda here. Please do not despair dear girl. You are not alone nor are you and Bear alone. This community will be right where you left it once you return. You will not be forgotten nor will Bear. Come back to us when you are able. warm hugs (remember I give really good hugs!)

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    1. You DO give good hugs! And strong handshakes :) Thank you ... your words mean so much.

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  14. We will miss you. Sometimes a break is good for the soul. Be well, keep smiling and come back when you can. We'll be here.
    P.S. LOVE, LOVE, LOVE your blog design. Adorable. ღ

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    1. Thank you! For your friendship and the compliments on our blog design. It was completely DIY and I've always felt somewhat inferior because of it.

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  15. We are new to your blog -well kinda of anyway. Yes, everyone needs a break now and then. We won't forget who you are now that we've found you. We have taken a break or two ourselves and our long time friends are still there when we return. We'll be here for you too. Hope things improve in your life.

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